Bring it 2013

Here we are, another new year where people will swear to change habits and usually don't and make some excuse about why they couldn't. I never could make new years resolutions like: "I'll lose all this weight this year. I'll eat better. I wont go on sporadic shopping sprees." Truthfully, I think it only sets us up for failure. Instead of focusing on how fast we get result from our resolutions, how about we focus on how its making us feel every day that we succeed. Maybe more people would follow through if they weren't already disappointed in two weeks when they couldn't see the effect of the changes they are trying to make. Everything takes time, and unfortunately, we are an impatient society.

So, for my new year, I won't set hard goals for myself, but instead a broad spectrum of things that will make me the person I want to be and be known for.

This year, I want to:
                      Love deeper
                                Learn more
                                       Laugh harder
                                                  Be happier
                                                       Make healthier choices.
                                                                   And live life  a little more fully.

 All of these tie together, they make life more vibrant and easy to appreciate. I wish everyone to find happiness in the new year. If you're going to make a promise to change anything, look in the mirror and ask if you are the person you want to be. I'm not talking about you weight, hair color, or whether your teeth are white enough. I'm saying, in fifty years from now, when you look back, how will you be remembered? What will stand out to the people who know and love you?

I know how I want to be remembered...and  intend on making the steps towards that day by day this year. I hope its a wild and exciting journey because I want to look back and say "I have no regrets, no what ifs, and no I should haves." Its ok to stumble, but never give up on yourself. Happy New Years!

Switching Gears

So, its been awhile since I've frequented my blog.  I'm sure this isn't an issue as no one reads this other then myself to reaffirm that I am, indeed, crazy! Truly, I write this to vent, be sad, be happy, get angry, be weird, and be myself. I need a place to be able to write freely about things going in my life right now and this seems a good spot to do so. I way prefer typing to writing in a journal.

I'm not really sure which way this blog will form. So much is going on in my life right now that I could go in any direction. I've decided to change my families diet completely. Were going paleo, or at least primal paleo. I truly refuse to give up cheese and since my body seems to handle the digestion of cheese just fine, I will continue to eat it! Paleo, in a nut shell, is getting rid of food that isn't natural for the body to digest. Things like processed food, wheat, additives, sugars...you get the idea. This is a big change for my husband and daughter being that while I don't shove processed food in here mouth by the shovel full, she does get a lot of sugar from juice, and she loves Chef Boyardee. As or my husband, he grew up on an all American diet. Instant mashed potatoes and green beans from the can. I AM TOTALLY NOT JUDGING any one that eats those things! I just know for my family, its not what's best for us. So making a switch to all fresh things is going to be probably more difficult for him than either my daughter or myself. I grew up eating a variety of healthy food and organic veggies, so this is not new territory, and my daughter is 2, so she'll grow into this as what she knows. If any body does come to read this, yes I know not everyone can afford fresh organic veggies, believe me I totally understand. Even frozen is better then canned though. Again, I am not judging how anyone eats, for me its a personal choice, and for others its their personal choice as well.

Anyway, my new food lifestyle change is one way this blog could go. Another way, which may tie into that in ways, is we think our daughter has food allergies. We aren't really sure if that's what it is, but that's where were starting. I would like to preface by saying I studied early childhood development and education in college, it was going to be my first choice major, so I know what the norm and non norm is for toddlers. My daughters tantrums went for normal toddler stubbornness to downright mayhem. For the past 2 weeks she has woke up crying, and I mean crying from 7am-9am when she goes to daycare, and from the moment she gets home 5pm until bed time. Absolutely inconsolable, wildly thrashing, banshee screaming fits. These tantrums can start over something as small as my bedspread being different then the day before. We know its not a form of Autism, I have multiple friends with kids who have Autism, and the pieces to fit the puzzle. However, a close friend has pointed out a good place to start would be with a food allergy testing. Kid's are funny that way, they can eat one thing for a long time, and suddenly they can't tolerate it. When my daughter (Ava by the way!) was younger, she couldn't have milk, now she totally tolerates it. This is where we have decided to start our journey for answers to why our toddler has become a tantrum queen. Because, my husband Mike and I have hit rock bottom with figuring it out on our own, finally reduced to tears and exhaustion. Monday, the hunt for answers begins!

I would have to say those are the two main ways this blog could go, or a blend of both, heck maybe it will be a blend of those two things and other struggles, I could even brave my struggles with weight...hmm I'll need to think on that one.

For now, that's all my mushy little brain can supply.